"The True Wine ..... Godís Love"

Thomas Williams

Hi, my name is Thomas Williams. I am writing this testimony because I have been redeemed by the precious blood of the Lord Jesus Christ. This man called Jesus has saved me from a life of rebellion against God. My greatest wish is that this testimony would lead many souls to the truth, which can be found in none other than the person of Jesus. Jesus said, "I am the way, the truth and the life, no one comes to the Father except through me." (John 14:6) "And they (those who believe) over came him ( the devil) by the blood of the Lamb (Jesus) and by the word of their testimony." (Rev. 12:11)

This is my testimony......

I grew up in Hampton, South Carolina. I was a part of a family of 11. There were four girls and five boys of which I was the third oldest. In my younger years from age 9-13, my mother would take us to church everytime the doors were opened. My childhood years were quiet ones, but as I got into my teenage years, I became a rebel and didnít want to listen to anyone.

As I look back on my life now, I wish my parents would have used "the rod" a little more than they did. Godís word says that, "foolishness is bound up in the heart of a child, but the rod of correction will drive that foolishness far from them." (Prov. 22:15)

The rebellion that was bound up in my heart led me to alcohol. I was looking for love and for someone to become a leader in my disorganized life. I had no idea that Jesus was to be that leader. Jesus said to his first disciples, "follow me." This is a command for all of us, but in my rebellion I couldnít hear His calling. Instead, I decided to follow the god of alcohol. My father was also caught up in the same false god that was passed on to me. You see, alcoholism was a curse upon my family, and I didnít know it. God says that we are to "have no other gods before Him." We are not to make for ourselves any carved image of any likeness of anything in heaven above, or anything on the earth, beneath or in the waters below. We are not to bow down to them either because He is a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the Fatherís upon the children, to the third and fourth generations of them that hate Him." (Exo. 20:3-5).

Alcohol had become my fatherís god, and it had now become mine also. I continued to bow down to that god, as many do. By the time I was 18 years old, I was an alcoholic. In addition to that, and to make matters worse, I was now the father of a beautiful daughter. So I joined the Marine Corp. after High School to make sure I would have a secure job. When I finished bootcamp, I was married. During this time though, my mother and grandmother were in prayer for me day and night for my salvation. Unfortunately, all I wanted was my god, which was the alcohol. I was totally blind to the fact that I was really lost and on my way to Hell. Romans 6:23 says, "For the wages of sin is death." Just as my sins would have earned me death, so will yours also earn you death. Numbers 32:23 says, "and be sure our sin will find us out."

During this time in my life, God would always send someone to me to direct me to Him. Just as He has sent my testimony to you right now to direct you to Him. In 1990, after getting into some trouble on base, my C.O. sent me to see the Chaplain. The Chaplain told me the parable of the "Prodigal Son." That parable had a great impact upon my soul. I still put up a wall because I was fearful of love and didnít know how to accept the love God was showing me through the prodigal son. Godís word says that, "Whoever does not love, does not know God, because God is love." (I John 4:8) This fear of love, and my problem with alcohol, led me to leave my wife, and by now, 2 kids. I was truly lost and all alone in myself and in my fear of love. My fear caused me to be blinded to Godís word, which says that, "there is no fear in perfect love, but perfect love casts out fear, because fear has torment." (I John 4:18-19) My fear of receiving Godís love caused me much torment!! This naturally led me from one relationship to another. Godís word says in James 1:8, that I was "a double minded man and unstable in all my ways." Fear not only causes torment, but it also caused me to not to be able to think right. My thoughts were racing all the time, and I couldnít gather them to think straight. Gods word says in Proverbs 23:29-30, "Who has woe? Who has sorrow? Who has contention? Who has wounds without cause? Who has redness of the eyes? Those who linger long at the wine. Those who go in search of mixed wines."

In all of this time of running and refusing to let anyone get close to me, I ended up in prison due to my drinking. I am now serving a 22 year sentence. In looking back I praise the Lord because through all of this, I have come to trust in Jesus. This was a major step in my life because my life was running out. I looked for help everywhere, even within myself. Time and time again I fell flat on my face falling deeper and deeper into despair -- until I hit the deepest pit of my life --PRISON!!! This was the bottom for me. Even though the fall was great, so was Godís way of saving my life. It may sound crazy, but through all of this I came to believe that a power greater than mine placed me in prison so that He could make a new creation. II Cor. 5:17 says, "Therefore if anyone is in Christ he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come." Once Jesus drew me to Himself, He gave me the wisdom, and the understanding needed to walk in victory over the spirit of alcoholism. I was also able to walk in victory over the other bondageís that were in my life. Proverbs 3:5-6 tell me to, " trust in the Lord with all my heart, leaning not on my own understanding, but in all my ways acknowledging Him, so that He could direct my path." He will do this in your life if you trust Him with all your heart.

If you have read this testimony of the mighty work done in my life by God and sense Godís presence in your heart, perhaps you would like to ask Jesus to forgive your sins and become your Lord and Savior. Repent of your old ways and receive new life in Jesus . . . By saying this prayer with me right now:

Praise God!!! Listen friend, if you prayed this prayer, please go and tell someone.

Thomas Williams
Keswick Colony of Mercy
601 Route 530
Whiting, NJ 08759