"A Cry From Behind Prison Walls"

Roger Cobb


May these words that God has placed in my mouth fill the "Void" in someoneís heart and draw them near to our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.

My name is Roger Cobb, and I am serving a 45 year sentence for trafficking cocaine in the state of Delaware. I come from a family of 10 children that grew up in a "three room house" (sack). We didnít have much, but my mother did the best she could to hold us together as a family. We werenít really a church-going family, but I do have fond memories of going to Bible school during the summer months. Soon after that, I started showing an interest in baseball. I knew that when that happened it would be my way out because my Dad was a baseball fanatic. Well, that didnít last long because we then moved to a new neighborhood. Soon after arriving to the new neighborhood I tried desperately to fit in. This is what led up to my being introduced to drugs (pot, window-pane and L.S.D.). I wasnít that interested in drinking alcohol, but I loved my "pot" !! I was smoking pot first thing in the morning and the last thing before I went to bed. In the meantime, I am still playing baseball and working on the weekends. With the help of my mother, I was able to buy my first car (Ď58 Chevy). Man, was I on top of the world!!!. Looking back, I finally realize that I was living for Satan. Romans 12:2 says, "And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God."

Now that I had a new car, work and baseball became secondary, and I started skipping school and hanging out with the wrong people. I liked these people because they knew where to get the best Pot. By the age of 20, I had quit school, thrown away my glove, had a son and had been arrested a few times for petty offenses. I had also been to the penitentiary, but didnít seem to learn anything since I was only there for a short time. I was still living in darkness. It says in I John 1:5, "this is the message which we have heard from Him and declare to you, that God is light and in Him is no darkness at all." Since I didnít learn anything from the first experience and it was acceptable in our "circle" to go to the penitentiary, I didnít have any fear. In Psalm 33:5 it says, " let all the earth fear the Lord; let all the inhabitants of the world stand in awe of Him." So I went from smoking pot to selling it. The next few years we were living on top of the world. I thought I had it altogether and nobody could tell me a thing. Proverbs 3:5 says, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding."

One night I was coming back from the beach and was pulled over by the police. I knew I was dirty (pot in my trunk). So, while the police were calling in my tags, I jumped out of my car and ran. Thatís when all my troubles began. Psalm 139:7 says, "where can I go from your spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?" Iím not only a fugitive now, but as soon as they open that trunk, Iím a drug dealer looking at some hard time. After turning myself in a few days later, I was able to make bail on the charges. I went to court, and the judge gave me time served. Once again, I told myself that I had beat the system. Proverbs 19:21 says, "There are many plans in a manís heart, nevertheless the Lordís counsel, that will stand".

The next few years went well. In June of 1989, the police came and kicked down my door because cocaine was on the scene. I had been caught up in the middle, meaning that I was going back to the penitentiary. John 14:3 says, " and if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and receive you to myself, that where I am, there you may be also." Once I was inside those prison walls, I knew that my life would never be the same. Hebrews 13:8 says, "Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today and forever." For the next thirteen months I fought my case and lost. I was put into general population where I was first approached about this fellow named Jesus. Since I was new in the system, I didnít want to hear anything about religion. John 10:27 says, " My sheep hear my voice, and I know them and they follow me." For the next four years there was no evidence that Jesus was living inside of me. Romans 6:23 says, "For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of god is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord".

One day, I met this brother named Philip Cubbage. He spoke about Jesus like I had never heard it before. Philippians 2:11 says, "and that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, the glory of God the Father." So the next few months we would meet out in the yard and talk about Jesus. On April 18, 1994, I gave my life to the Lord. Acts 3:19 says, " Repent therefore and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out, so that times of refreshing may come from the presence of the Lord." Brother Philip told me that I was under "Grace" and that God would (and had) forgiven me of my sins. The only problem was that I kept on living the same life (getting high and not reading my Bible). Matthew 6:24 says, "No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or else he will be loyal to the one and despise the other." You cannot serve both God and money." I finally realized that I was deceiving myself. So on April 21, 1996, I went forward to be baptized. Acts 22:16 says, "And now why are you waiting? Arise and be baptized, and wash away your sins, calling on the name of the Lord."

By this time I was a lot worse then I was before I came to know Jesus. James 1:8 says, "he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways." God has a way of getting oneís attention. He got mine when he sent the authorities to my cell and I was arrested inside of the penitentiary for drugs. Now, I was put into maximum security. Proverbs 4:20 says, "My son, give attention to my words, incline your ear to my sayings." The next few days I sat in my room and tried to come to some sort of conclusion --"why me?" One day, I was trying to find a ball game on the radio and came across a gentleman preaching on the subject of "backsliding." I sat and realized that he was speaking about me. Proverbs 14:14 says, "The backslider in heart will be filled with his own ways, but a good man will be satisfied from above." So I fell down on my knees and asked God to come back into my life. Acts 10:43 says, "to him all the prophets witness that, through His name whoever believes in Him will receive remission of sins and take control of the situation." Psalm 34:17 says, "The righteous cry out and the Lord hears and delivers them out of all their troubles."

On March 26, 1997, I was informed by the authorities that because of my behavior, I was being transferred to another penitentiary. This didnít bother me because now I was living for the Lord. God has allowed me to have peace and joy in my life like I never thought possible.

If you see your need for Jesus in your life, please say this prayer with me: "God, I know that I am a sinner. I know I canít save myself. I believe that Jesus died on the cross for my sins. I believe He rose from the dead to live His life through all who believe in Him. I now receive Him as my Savior. I accept your offer of forgiveness and everlasting life. Thank you Father. In Jesus name I pray, Amen"

Dear Friend,

If you said this prayer, please contact me, because I would like to share more with you about what God can do in your life. Matthew 6:33 says, "But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things shall be added to you"
May God Bless you!!!!

Roger Cobb
New Jersey State Prison
PO 861
Trenton, NJ 08625